I don’t know whether it’s my age, my current status in life or my egg freezing experience, but I sure have become more reflective recently. When I came out the other side of egg freezing, in that I mean safely having eggs in the bank, I definitely began to look back on the choices I’ve made with more thought than I ever have. This is a bit against the grain for me as I’ve not been one for ‘what could have been’, I’m more inclined to think that any past decisions have got me where I am, with a sense of adventure and intrigue rather than regret. Most of the time I do think everything happens for a reason, however, obscure that may be.
I think this type of attitude to life has been much healthier for me and one which has pulled me through some less happy times.
Fertility is one of the things in life no one seems to think about until there’s something wrong, i.e you can’t get pregnant easily. When I recently spoke to Valerie Landis of Eggsperience I told her I thought that freezing my eggs would take the worry out of future relationships with regards to having children, but I realise that this really isn’t the case. If anything I’ve realised that nothing is a given with regards to fertility, not even egg freezing. There are so many variables in the whole topic of my future fertility. The only thing I can be sure of is that I’ve done all I can for now and must make the most of the decisions I’ve made and try to move on.
Everyone needs someone or something to inspire them, either to move on, to achieve their goals or in the most simplistic form to have enough energy to tackle the day ahead. When one of my friends posted a quote from www.workingwomen.com on Facebook earlier this year I didn’t realise at the time how their posts would give me a certain lift, or a moment of reflection just when I needed it. I can remember just how poignant the one I’ve pictured with this post was at the time of reading. I was having a bit of a wobble and it made me stop and think, have a little word to myself and be grateful for all the wonderful things I do have rather than looking back on what could have been.